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Their expecting twin girls in December, but Sean Diddy Combs and girlfriend Kim Porter won't get married anytime soon, the music mogul says. I know she deserves to get married, Diddy, 37, tells Essence magazine in its December issue, but I'm just not ready. He explains, It's not a reflection on how much I love Kim. It's that I'm just learning how to be a good boyfriend. When I'm finished with this step, I'll move on to the next.




They began dating, but split in 1999 and then reconciled in 2003. In the interim, Combs dated Jennifer Lopez for two years. As Porter remembers of that period, Everywhere I went, people were asking, 'Are you okay?' I just hated that." But she says of Diddy's connection to Lopez, "That relationship wasn't real. The world just saw the bright lights and the camera. But I knew what was really going on. He was still in love with me."

She adds, People just believed everything they saw in print, and they were talking to me like I was really crushed. But I had just had a baby. I couldn't be somewhere in a corner heartbroken. I have kids. I'm a grown woman.